I've had a busy past few weeks. I hate the word busy as most people try to raise their palms and sigh 'I'm just too busy'.
The word can be used to be lazy, saying you're busy so you don't have to do another task or maybe you're busy but
it's how eeffective you're being with it.
My 'busy' schedule includes working, hanging out with friends, partying, commuting, travelling, dining out and listening to music. Obviously some of these activities are for leisure and pleasure whilst others can be considered work but as I largely love what I do it all ties up.
Let's be real, I haven't posted in months and years. I don't know this blog used to be a platform for my thoughts and feelings whilst I was designing. I started it at 17 and now I'm 25, I used to do outfit posts, style news updates and just waffle on about what I found interesting.
Within that space and time so much has changed. I've become politically engaged, worked several jobs, edited a magazine and now edit Primarks website overseeing the menswear content.
I wanted to ressurect this blog as I thought why not? There's history on it and my voice and tone has changed perspective but it's still fundamentally the same. I just want this to be a place where I can write selfishly about what I'm feeling, seeing, thinking, eating, loving and who reads it reads it.
This month is press day season so to be fair a lot of freebies aren't exclusive to me but whatever they're freebies all the same.
Ray ban velvet trimmed wayfarers- can't complain but this was via Luxcitta press day, they basically partner and manufacture glasses for a range of designers
K-Swiss Hightops this is another press day gift, I'm not a fan of white trainers but it's good to break out the box as I do genuinely like these
GHD- I'm currently do Xmas gift guides and some vain somebody I know decided that they have a love for GHD as they're a genuine consumer of the product their excitement fed into me and I decided to review and road test these little beauties
Supra- I used to be in with the brand and get trainers sent to me every month as my style is what I self describe as part skater part Librarian, there's a scruffiness and strictness in most of my outfits although I can honestly admit the former takes over the most. I like both the hat and tee and already worn the hat.
£100 Mr. porter voucher and book- I went to a launch that the company co hosted and the goodie bag contained this, I've never ordered from Mr.Porter before so it was a nice little surprise that I translated into a pair of slim fit black nudie jeans
Forever Butt- a collection of interviews from Butt Magazines archive
Monica Vinader Bracelet- a cute little bracelet that I got engraved
I think to be honest my favourite forms of writing for magazines would be political ( helping to change and shape the times) arts ( reviewing how artists creatively reflect the times) food/ travel reviews ( experiencing experiences and put that into words for others to read and relate) interviews ( trying to understand the mind of another)
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I'm saying this as I've experienced, I was born black, it was never an issue I grew up in Somerset, Weston Super Mare, being the only black boy, no one bullied me or called me names I just was and it just was, as we grew up together we didn't see ourselves as different, I only noticed difference in school one day, when we were drawing the outlines of heads our silhouette projected onto a piece of paper where another chalked it out, mine was radically different, from my head shape, to my large lips and broad nose, it was there and then I realised what race was.
For nine years I lived in Weston and There was only one incident as when my Nanny began fostering other kids, the child was from another school, we threw a party for that child and as we were inviting children one parent said she didn't want her child around blacks. That was the first time I experienced racism, I don't know how I felt but I felt something and that's why I can remember that experience.
It's not even the fact of choosing my skin colour, I love being black because black is me. I love Africa for it's beauty, diversity & history from Egypt to Songhai and it's iconic animals. To me the issue is what comes with having the skin colour the assumptions and preconceived notions of what blackness is, our culture of black people being laughed for being dumb, classless and 'ghetto' it's frustrating and I can get mad and cry over it, because it's still like o wow if you talk articulately and show that you process a brain,
I'm so tired of white entitlement, I'm so tired of people telling me not to be angry, I'm so tired of people black people thinking they have to conform therefore settling therefore not allowing progress,
I'm just fed the fuck up and it pisses me off that I entered into an industry that accepts racism and thinks it's ok to pat themselves on the back for doing a token all black issue of a magazine, when a black model walks for a prestigious house for the first time in more than a decade. These are accomplishments yes but shouldn't they shock and horrify first and congratulate second?
Sometimes I forget what it is that makes me want to critique, consume and contribute, culture. Then I see a piece of work that reminds me why, reason being it's all communication really and without that what are we?
Black Mirror has always been brilliant like a hyper play, this Xmas special didn't stray away from it's usual themes of the horrors of society creating a cautionary tale.
Largely it's about technology and it's advancement, people have these google glass like eyes, where there's no longer a need for a laptop or a phone
First act looks into reality, when a hapless young man seeks advice on dating what he gets is a guru who he consults and advises him on how to pick up girls ( sounds familiar with recent furore of blocking access to the UK of a pickup artist). We see him watch and guide yet not only is the guru watching there's a online forum of other people giving advice and pitching in to the guru equally seeing someone go about their daily life. It can easily be viewed as the trend we have to consume the lives of others through constructed reality tv series, how real can real be? here we have the answer although the guru can be considered the producers pushing for situations that cause entertainment to arise. It all turns dark and nasty when he picks up a women suffering from schizophrenia assuming that as she watched him off guard and caught him talking to people not present that he suffered the same. It eventually ends in her poisoning then both as the watchers look in with horror getting more entertainment then they could of bargained for.
Second act is about simulated experiences and artificial intelligence as we rely on technology more and more to do the menial tasks. A service is offered to observe and replicate and then extract your being, copying your mind and thought process essentially turning you into a robot that isn't aware they're a robot and then has to be punished and broken into before they understand they're not real. Who better knows themselves than them-self, the sim is there simply to be a PDA nothing more and nothing less. Entrapped in a digital sphere with nothing but these tasks to keep busy and entertained. it brings to mind that if AI's can process this much level of intelligence what's to stop them from envying and hurting their master although death of their owner would essentially mean that there would be absolutely nothing for them to do. Modern day Slavery yes although not real if able to produce thoughts and feelings then the ethics on this would have to be considered.
Third act is more like the JLO vehicle 'The Cell' using techniques to delve into the mind of a suspect except it's not the actual mind but a simulation of the mind yet that still holds the secrets that are hidden from the main mind and using technology such as speeding up time, it allows for eternal entrapment to be real and to do things that couldn't be done on the real human to the sim. In this age humans can block each other and then they become nothing but a pixelated blob with their words echoes, although the outline of the blob still allows the blocked to still possibly harm the blocker, with the use of a button it's easier to erase people from your life but at what cost ?
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Aren't we all voyeurs though even if it's talking about your best friends man or their relationship or a movie it's the lives if others that make our lives feel enriched to know that there's someone better to lookup to or aspire or people below to pity and look down on, the human experience is a singular yet shared experience
I think I have a favorite shoe, to say all time fave is a lot but I do like them and its only this season that I've proper fallen in like, I've seen them prior but the simple all black and all blue just did it for me
I'm going to be honest like most things done by the masses there's an art to it, I don't find wet shaving suitable for me I only remove a layer of hair and don't cut from the root as I find due to the texture and way my hair grows quite curly it always causes ingrown hairs I may be doing it wrong and this may just help as its an informative video from Mr.Porter
Beyond bored, I'm just so over being content by being drunk and clubbing there's so much more to life and I can't see it now but I know it, my friends just want to club all the time and hardly do day time activities, where we chill out and aren't just in each others company drunk and unable to communicate, keeping up with their life's has become liking a post or picture that gives more detail into their lives than what they tell me
I know I'm talented at what I don't know I know I need to be told either by a tutor or others, I need to know my strengths and understand my weaknesses, I need to be around others who create and are creative or at least appreciate art. Living life on autopilot is something I never wanted to do and its taken me to enter a relationship to understand that you know what I'm getting older and I need to know more about myself and what I can push to create a stable commercial income.
I know these things so I know what to work on to be at a place I want to be and the person I'll feel most comfortable and content being