.

No mending or no longer pretending that it’s perfect no time to regret but let’s take it back to the day we met, how our eyes met before the lies set in and tears pored before the name calling and blame games, before the pain, before the shame, before running round again & again driving each other insane when you never left my brain
I can’t love you more than this, now I know it’s over, it’s you I am going to miss but before it’s at an end let’s forget the past and make this last kiss the sweetest thing to ever met our lips as at this time I can’t love another more than this longing for our last kiss
Better apart even though you’re still in my heart, got to move on, been proved wrong, broken now you’re no longer my sweetest token, I keep smoking, joking about not loving you, when we both know it’s not true and it’s you I thought I belonged to before I wronged you before I smelt the aftershave on you
I can’t love you more than this, now I know it’s over, it’s you I am going to miss but before it’s at an end let’s forget the past and make this last kiss the sweetest thing to ever met our lips as at this time I can’t love another more than this longing for our last kiss
No more words to say, no more time to pray, no more time to lay in your arms, drunk of your sweet charm, it’s over we both need to wake up and take up with someone new, someone who makes you fly like a kite but It just don’t feel right but I know it’s right got to face the light and no longer fight that we’re at an end, Imagining someone else holding you tight, seeing your face disappear into the night
I can’t love you more than this, now I know it’s over, it’s you I am going to miss but before it’s at an end let’s forget the past and make this last kiss the sweetest thing to ever met our lips as at this time I can’t love another more than this longing for our last kiss
Dancing to our last song how can something right feel so wrong, wish this moment could be forever long, wish this wasn’t a blue valentine, that you didn’t look so fine, that you could always be mine & I knew what line to say to make everything ok make the past and pain go away but I know I can’t and the hurt is here to stay so I have to go away


Nobody knows but me how it is to dislike your family, the people your supposed to love. The mother and brother's who I wished I knew the things they put me through.

You made me feel small, no matter how tall you are, you made growing up hell, I wasn't well, but who was there to tell.

Hard to find a place in a place that's supposed to be home, all I ever did was feel alone. All she ever did was complain and moan. Locked in my room, a dreamer with no dreams, stories, songs my escape whilst you always blared your rap mixtapes.

You made me feel small, no matter how tall you are, you made growing up hell, I wasn't well, but who was there to tell.


Anything I had that was better than yours somehow became yours, I blame you for the wrong now I am writing this song not trying to make it right just giving you an insight.

You made me feel small, no matter how tall you are, you made growing up hell, I wasn't well, but who was there to tell.

There's time when I wished I wasn't alone, that I lived at home and that house was home, without the martyr mother who just moaned and moaned. Times I wish I didn't runaway at fifteen with my school bag packed with a few rags on back, but all that shit taught me and all the mistakes brought to where I am today and without that I wouldn't be this way, think how I think say the things I say, don't play life is a lesson my own is also a blessing, all that's happened to me has taught me to see allowed me to be who I am and I am proud to say,that I'm proud to be gay of course I should say speak where others are weak, not trying to be a role model just be true to my soul.




I think its not easy being me, if only others could see what I see, spend some hours being me, pursuit of happiness if there's such a thing or just something kid cudi and mgmt sing

I spend so much time close to edge, fucked up thoughts running through my head, sometimes I wonder would If I'd be better of dead.


a new struggle everyday, find it difficult to pay my way, dreading post the most, a new bill arriving through the door, growing dusty on the floor, phones been cut off can't take this anymore

I spend so much time close to edge, fucked up thoughts running through my head, sometimes I wonder would If I'd be better of dead.


I can't feel much anymore, keep waiting for something to open the door, awake me from this state I am in, for life to let me win, at least one round before it finally tears me down

I spend so much time close to edge, fucked up thoughts running through my head, sometimes I wonder would If I'd be better of dead.


ROUNDABOUT
On the roundabout again, no more if buts and when's, looking for familiar friends, I guess that all just depends on how fast you call someone you know, and if relationships grow, because 15 years ended in tears.

Breaking down working overtime, call my dealer need to chase the white line, distractions what I need so I can finally breathe, looking for a way out, to stay out. To live and give back to myself my mind & bodies wealth.

Distractions only kill fractions of my time, wills breaking, need to be taking some kind of drug, missing their love,

Breaking down working overtime, call my dealer need to chase the white line, distractions what I need so I can finally breathe, looking for a way out, to stay out. To live and give back to myself my mind & bodies wealth.

Time to pretend, as nothing can mend, how I feel, no kiss left to seal off my day and night, darkness no light, I am not winning this fight, back to the beginning of vice drugs and sinning.



Long day, strange nights, tired of the arguments and fights,
holding out my hands hoping for you to understand,
coping only because I remember the good times

Tell me the reason why
You commit a love suicide
I think you want our love to die
You did it on purpose
I'm all out of tears
Tell me get outta here
You made it very clear

You did it on purpose, purpose
You did it on purpose, purpose
You made me feel worthless, worthless
Why would you hurt us
You did it on purpose, purpose
You did it on purpose, purpose
You made me feel worthless, worthless
Why would you hurt us

My heads hurting, tired of searching for the one I used to know,
hoping that someday soon he'll begin to show,
coping only because I remember the good times

Tell me the reason why
You commit a love suicide
I think you want our love to die
You did it on purpose
I'm all out of tears
Tell me get outta here
You made it very clear

You did it on purpose, purpose
You did it on purpose, purpose
You made me feel worthless, worthless
Why would you hurt us
You did it on purpose, purpose
You did it on purpose, purpose
You made me feel worthless, worthless
Why would you hurt us



9-5 slave
Point of no return,
the trust I had's been burned,
lessons learned these years I spent with you,
feel wasted now we're though, my biggest fear a reality

When there's no one to turn to, bridges burned and lessons learned, when the world falls on you like a ton of bricks and you feel mentally and physically sick, its easy to say things will get better that rain can't get wetter, this is an open letter, that the storm will calm and the world will be back in you're palm

The pain I feel could drive others insane but I got to be brave, smart and wise, stand up to other's lies, refuse to be a nine to five slave, people are supposed to inspire so how come everyone's a liar

You can lose it all, but you can always rise from the fall, what's wealth without health, as long as you got that life can go on, the most precious gift that should never be overlooked or took for granted, the seed that our father planted.

The pain I feel could drive others insane but I got to be brave, smart and wise, stand up to other's lies, refuse to be a nine to five slave, people are supposed to inspire so how come everyone's a liar

When you feel like nothing can heal or you're never recover from this ordeal, when you've lost a loved one like a mother, when you're soul is cut in two and you feel you're through with life, husband hitting on his wife, there's an up side to a frown as there is to an all time down

The pain I feel could drive others insane but I got to be brave, smart and wise, stand up to other's lies, refuse to be a nine to five slave, people are supposed to inspire so how come everyone's a liar

Humanity drives you close to sanity, with all the hate and tall giants that make others feel small, Katie Price has put a price to her self all in all to generate wealth, selling souls to become a star and push a nice car, that's the biggest dreams for the youth of the day it seems

The pain I feel could drive others insane but I got to be brave, smart and wise, stand up to other's lies, refuse to be a nine to five slave, people are supposed to inspire so how come everyone's a liar


NATION OF CREATION
Governed by fear for years so many inhabitants shedding tears, empty souls, save them, brave men who rise up to the lies ready to break all ties, take their chance to defy those in power

O mother land to you I return, but when will those who govern learn, Rob the oil, rich soil, wicked governments spoil,

Abomination, pro creation, aids, malaria, dirty water, mothers losing daughter, life spans getting shorter





O mother land to you I return, but when will those who govern learn, Rob the oil, rich soil, wicked governments spoil,

A new heart, to begin a new start, its never to late to open the gates to the land but still blood diamonds on rich woman's hands, learn to earn from the resources on offer, profit in you're own peoples pockets

O mother land to you I return, but when will those who govern learn, Rob the oil, rich soil, wicked governments spoil,


A nation of creation, Destruction instead of construction, deception instead of lessons, illusions that cause confusion, Poverty people with no property,

O mother land to you I return, but when will those who govern learn, Rob the oil, rich soil, wicked governments spoil,


Eternally enslaved, chains preventing from enrichening the brain, civil wars death toll rising more and more each day caused because some pray a different way

O mother land to you I return, but when will those who govern learn, Rob the oil, rich soil, wicked governments spoil,





Feelings so complex how can someone I love get me so vexed, hate but a dinner date and I am back to how I felt before back home and my fist is through the locked toilet door, pulling you off the seat, knocking you off you're feet damn this why do I succumb, why do I feel so numb, what the fuck man this is dumb.

What you've done I can't forget but that don't mean I can let you do this to me, that I can let this relationship be,

What kind of curse is this one minute I am hurt the next I am not willing to desert you, I know how low I was before I met you, but still somehow don't get you, wonder if we'll ever get through this, hit and miss, one hit to the wrong place not talking about simply bruising your face

What you've done I can't forget but that don't mean I can let you do this to me, that I can let this relationship be,

You're always in my heart somehow someway, I know that wherever, whatever you'll be there stay, always, but can't deal with how you make me feel the infliction, the fairytale love that I thought was fiction, this kind of sick drug addiction. Got to let it go before I let myself go, bad how fucking sad but this shit is driving me mad

What you've done I can't forget but that don't mean I can let you do this to me, that I can let this relationship be,

Out on a date tell me is this fate, see you talking to that guy, don't even try to fucking lie, you can't cry you're way out of this, hit you to the floor you try make you're way to the door, I've knocked you to the bed, hitting you I put a pillow over you're head, you're gasping, I am lost in the moment, fuck sakes think you might be dead.


You're the light that drives away the dark, brightening my day making it extra light none the less I look forward to our night,

With you I am at home, I don't remember being alone, you're all I need and all I want, you're the one that i cling to the one that I sing this to

every breath enhanced when I am with you, a touch causes me to moan,Inside you feels like I am home, never want to be alone, 

With you I am at home, I don't remember being alone, you're all I need and all I want, you're the one that i cling to the one that I sing this to


You're embrace, you're smell, you're taste, pretty clear I need you, love like this can't go to waste, 

With you I am at home, I don't remember being alone, you're all I need and all I want, you're the one that i cling to the one that I sing this to



We'll catch the very last train to jump on that plane let's run runaway from this place that's driving me insane

Forget the past me and you is what its about no more regrets no more doubt. This time you'll see why I belong to you and you to me.

We'll catch the very last train to jump on that plane let's run runaway from this place that's driving me insane

Decisions this place feels like a prisons its holding me back and I am starting to crack your the only thing that relieves my pain, the only thing easing my brain, the only thing keeping me sane.

We'll catch the very last train to jump on that plane let's run runaway from this place that's driving me insane

I don't know what to do and where I would be without you, your kisses, your laugh, your smile my heart never wanting to be apart. 

We'll catch the very last train to jump on that plane let's run runaway from this place that's driving me insane

I never want to be alone your arms is my home, the kiss I miss, the lips your hips, you and me, him and he. 

We'll catch the very last train to jump on that plane let's run runaway from this place that's driving me insane



Willing to forgive, wanting to forget, if I let you go I'll always live in regret, your the reason I am puffing away at this cigarette, thinking back to the day we met, when our love was set, when I become you and you became me. 

I really can't pull out this thorn in my side, when all the things I've seen you always denied, how we are supposed to move on when you've been proved wrong but you won't admit to the shit you've done.

I can't continue much longer, feels like I am trying to win you back, my loves starting to crack, I can't let you go without letting you know, 

I really can't pull out this thorn in my side, when all the things I've seen you always denied, how we are supposed to move on when you've been proved wrong but you won't admit to the shit you've done.

You had me falling for you, every heartbeat calling its true, but to cheat and not be discreet what's that about, I've had my scream and shout not getting through, so its all up to you to be true. 

I really can't pull out this thorn in my side, when all the things I've seen you always denied, how we are supposed to move on when you've been proved wrong but you won't admit to the shit you've done.




Sirens blaring, few people caring another life lost, stabbings on the back street, kids hand cuffed on the back seat. 

This city, so gritty, Tottenham, young mothers pushing prams, majority crammed into high risers, council flats, rent went on a gram of that.

Broken dreams is all this place seems, high school drop outs, chased by the cops now, chipmunk made it out the hood, something right something good.

This city,so gritty, Tottenham, young mothers pushing prams, majority crammed into high risers, council flats, rent went on a gram of that.

Young mother, little brother don't cry or sigh god gave us wings we all able to fly, just try hard work pays off I know how you I feel I too I m lost.



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As the city's youth there's proof that the government can't hold us down refrain from the frown, not taken for a clown.

Londons burning, burning, burning, cities turning, turning, turning, children rebelling, belling, belling, mother's eyes swelling, swelling, swelling. Unite to fight against the PM suited, booted and robbing us blind.


Student, lessons, David Cameron's blessing, messing, playing around what's he saying, what's he doing uni fee rising, how's that not surprising

Londons burning, burning, burning, cities turning, turning, turning, children rebelling, belling, belling, mother's eyes swelling, swelling, swelling. Unite to fight against the PM suited, booted and robbing us blind.


Leave us in a mess, the next generation to pick up the pieces of the last, the same one that they all had a blast, profit, profit in David Cameron and big city banker pockets, what a wanker, wanker.

Londons burning, burning, burning, cities turning, turning, turning, children rebelling, belling, belling, mother's eyes swelling, swelling, swelling. Unite to fight against the PM suited, booted and robbing us blind.


Robs us blind the jobless kind, trying to stop us enriching our minds, these con'dem find that there the ones legally committing a crime, 4 years what a fucking long time.

Londons burning, burning, burning, cities turning, turning, turning, children rebelling, belling, belling, mother's eyes swelling, swelling, swelling. Unite to fight against the PM suited, booted and robbing us blind.

Violence I hate it don't think that I rate it, but its the thing that allowed for the shit to be debated and with charles and camilla caught in the thriller.

Londons burning, burning, burning, cities turning, turning, turning, children rebelling, belling, belling, mother's eyes swelling, swelling, swelling. Unite to fight against the PM suited, booted and robbing us blind.

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I am afraid of losing my soul and instead letting money be the root of control, wearing a suit and getting that nine to five, no longer feeling that I am alive, lost in the rat race, that I'll lose myself trying to find my place,

I am afraid of Dying and not trying to be all I thought I could be, maybe the futures not so bright and the lights won't blind me or take over these dark nights maybe life isn't worth the fight maybe what all those haters say is right

I am afraid all my dreams will hang on shelves, that people care nothing more than about themselves, that doors won't open, that I'll be washed up with no emotion, I'll lose direction show no affection & I'll sleep with people just to add to my collection

I am afraid of Dying and not trying to be all I thought I could be, maybe the futures not so bright and the lights won't blind me or take over these dark nights maybe life isn't worth the fight maybe what all those haters say is right

I am afraid my lovers will turn out to be like my mother and sons my brother, I am scared we'll always fight, I am scared another lover will take me away, I'll miss my kids play, I am scared I'll start to despise her sight, I am scared of turning off the childrens lights.

I am afraid of Dying and not trying to be all I thought I could be, maybe the futures not so bright and the lights won't blind me or take over these dark nights maybe life isn't worth the fight maybe what all those haters say is right